This is it: the final stretch before the competition on Saturday.
Trainer Ben thinks I’m holding it all together, but little does he know that I’ve had a few melt downs along the way.
Truly, the last week has been a test of motivation and I’ve been so close to throwing in the towel and surrendering in a heap of exhaustion.
Why for god’s sake am I pursuing this grueling training and putting my body through all this stress? Why?
Because this is who I am meant to be. I feel strong, empowered. I am finally comfortable in my own skin and the positive self-belief spills over into my life outside the gym too.
I spent my high school years being hopelessly unpopular and brutally bullied by the A-Team girls. I have been told by emotional abusive ex-boyfriends that I’m difficult and no one would ever want me. Up to this point, I’ve always been restlessly seeking affirmation that I wasn’t ugly, stupid or socially awkward.
Ben has always told me that “bodybuilding” is a selfish sport.
You are weight training and slaving away for yourself only. And I agree, it’s selfish. But EVERYONE should exercise this selfishness because if you don’t invest in your good health and body, then who will? Being proactive is better than being reactive and I don’t recommend that you wait until a heart attack to tell you otherwise!
I have learnt that we ALL have control over our fate in this world. If you are great, you CHOOSE to be great. You can either choose to sit on the couch or you can choose to be active.
The reason I started my fitness journey is because I passionately want to help others learn more about healthy living and improving their own quality of life.
I have picked up knowledge on exercise and nutrition that has not only challenged my own perception about food, but also open up my family’s eyes to their own lifestyle choices.
We experienced a rude awakening when my mum was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes over a year ago. Poor dietary choices coupled with an indulgent fast food lifestyle, it was a ticking time bomb that non of us considered. The most frustrating thing about it is that it could have all been avoided if we had known more about nutrition and had the knowledge to make healthier choices.
The more people I touch with my own accounts and experience, the more I am succeeding on this journey to become a positive health advocate!
What drives you in your life and are you where you want to be?
Find your “why” and the journey becomes an enjoyable experience.
This might be my last entry before I slip into water manipulation hell and start staring at my favorite white wall in a depleted daze. So, before my brain cells go on strike until Saturday, I want to thank everyone for reading and supporting me throughout.
Your comments and visits to my lil’ ol blog has motivated me to keep going and I hope I have at least provided you with some reading material while you sit on the can (admit it, everyone does it on their iphones! lol). In the words of Arnie, I’ll be back!
Love you all,